A Man’s Guide, Becoming a More Confident Partner & Lover.

A Man’s Guide, Becoming a More Confident Partner & Lover.

There’s one question men often ask, in different forms.

It’s a question I had for many years, but when I hear it now it sounds so strange and foreign.  I mean, I was a programmer. It was my job to write a set of instructions with such precision, such attention to detail, such thoroughness of design, that when followed (robotically and to the letter) it would produce the desired results flawlessly every single time.

So it made sense to me that getting beyond my terrible record with women was just a matter of finding the most effective instruction manual. This is how men think. Many of us, anyway. It was impossible for me to conceive of any other path to the kind of connection I was desperately hungry for. What different approaches could there possibly be?

I never found the formula, because obviously, there isn’t one. But I did find a different path. So when I’m asked how to become more confident with women, I have to shift back to the "me" who wondered the same thing and tried to come up with a useful way to answer.

Because the truth is, the world is abundant and loving and waits patiently, for decades if necessary, for us to be ready to receive all the gifts meant for us.

So perhaps the first step is to rephrase the question:

“Who would I need to become—as a man and a human being—to be in a happy, fulfilling, enjoyable relationship with the woman of my dreams? If I were thrust into that life right now, who would I need to be to live fully in it?”

Is this something the younger me might have been able to hear and make sense of? I don’t know. But it’s the best I’ve come up with so far.

So when I was recently asked the confidence question again, I took my best shot at coming up with an “instruction manual” based on my personal experience.

The steps were all about, how what I did, in how they affected me, though. Then the relationship of my dreams took care of itself. That’s how it worked. The relationship happened the instant I became the man ready to have it.

That man isn’t looking for an instruction manual, and the last thing he needs is advice from some outside authority on how to treat the woman he’s with. My god, every ounce of her being is telling him from moment to moment, loud and clear, what she feels. That man will spend the rest of his life getting to know her, learning to be more intimate, a better friend, a more nuanced lover, and removing his internal blocks to closeness.

Here are the steps I took:

I did things I felt good about. 

Things that boosted my sense of self-worth or self-esteem. Whether it was bravely having an uncomfortable conversation or accomplishing a difficult task or “doing the right thing” even when I’d much rather take a different route, these things gradually helped me like myself and thought of myself as a good, worthy and capable person.

I began to trust my intuition

My gut feelings and my ability to sense others. Sometimes I took risky chances, following an inkling that wasn’t exactly by-the-books. And sometimes I was wrong. But I was right often enough to start to believe my own  wisdom. All of my mistakes taught me something and made my intuition more accurate. Trusting my intuition made me a skillful instigator rather than just a willing participant.

I learned how to forgive myself. 

I noticed where I was hard on myself with regrets and comparisons that served no useful purpose and were harmful to my psychological well-being. I allowed my ego to take a significant pounding and began to let go of it. Without a fragile ego to protect, I suddenly found a new freedom—to be vulnerable, to let someone else win an argument, to stop worrying about looking good, to be wrong about something, to apologize, to receive feedback, to recognize that someone else is better at something. Where my ego had been threatened by these situations, my confident self, wasn’t.

Women's Approval

I got to the bedrock of why I put so much weight into women’s approval of me. I saw how in my young, impressionable years, I came to rely on women in an unhealthy way for nurturance and guidance. And in seeing it, something dissolved. I was able to let go of approval-seeking tendencies, performance anxiety and trying hard to impress rather than be authentic. I could relax and enjoy. This made me more of a pleasure to interact with for the women in my life than the needy man I was.

Templates

I stopped believing in the existence of formulas or algorithms or techniques that would tell me the right thing to do. I started to see that everything I needed to know was right there in the actual moment of interacting with someone and that all of my attention should be there. Not on some template behavior that someone else told me would work or something that worked for me the last time. I started being fully present in my relationships and saw that all the answers were there.

Authenticity

I asked and listened and learned. Without a fragile ego needing to be told I was doing it right, I had a ton of leeway to determine how actually to do it right. I stopped striving to be a master and instead became a life-long student. Everything women and men reflected back to me, whether it took the form of requests, advice, criticism, complaints or compliments, helped me learn, grow and become more confident as a lover and a man.

Author: Ken Blackman
Image: Photo by Toa Heftiba on
Source: Elephant Journal